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by Nadia Horvath
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When I found out I was pregnant, I was so sad and very scared. I didn't want to have this baby. I didn't think I was ready to be a mum. All I could do was cry. Then all I could do was be angry with my partner. I screamed and yelled abuse at him.

Then I apologised. I started to talk to him about how I felt.

We both broke down and cried. I went for my first ultrasound a few days later. I saw our baby's tiny heart beat up on the screen. That was all I needed. How could I be so selfish? Now that there is a life growing inside, I had to be better and fit for it, physically, emotionally and mentally.

I came back to school, started to eat healthy and exercise regularly. Then and only then inside I felt proud of the things I had achieved. Each day as our baby grows, I get more and more excited. I can start to feel it moving and sometimes it gets annoying but I suppose it's all part of the package.

My partner and I are looking for the perfect home to bring up our child. We both can't wait till we're parents. When we go out, everywhere we look there are couples and mums and grandparents with babies, and inside I just melt.

In a way, I'm glad that this baby unexpectedly came along. I feel like a better person. And I am grateful that I have the love and support from my family, friends, teachers and school.

* The Re-engage This! multimedia competition was open to young Queenslanders aged between 12 and 25 years. This is one of 6 entries (the winners) that were chosen for publication.